2009 in words

In two weeks it will be the end of the decade and the end of the year and what a year it has been...for me at least. On new years eve i will be getting married, its quite an end to a year that has been full of ups and downs. I think i have experienced more emotions in the last twelve months than in the previous 27 years. I've made a lot of mistakes but i am putting them right. It all started in March when Amber had a miscarriage. I still shiver when i think of the moment when my mum called me to tell me. I was in the uk at the time and had only been there for 36 hours, i can't describe the how i felt, the worst kind of numb doesn't make sense but its the best i can do, heaven knows how amber must have felt. Walking into the hospital room where she was was like knowing you are about to be in a car crash, you know it's going to be bad but you can't do anything about it. It was impossible to say or do anything that could make it better. The hopelessness was paralyzing. For a while i was in denial, i didn't talk about it, or if i did i pathetically and disgracefully suggested it wasn't mine. If one of them was you i sincerely apologize, i wasn't trying to mislead you, i was trying to mislead myself. Then i ran away to dubai for work...and it really was running away. That couldn't have gone much worse, i can't talk about what exactly happened for legal reasons but i made some serious errors in judgement when it came to employing people and ended up if not being deported, then certainly advised to leave. If you read any of the stuff in the papers about employees living in squalid conditions then that is what i was involved in...though i didn't realize that's who i was employing at the time and if i had would have reported it. But i should have known, i should have done more background checks. So back in the US i had a lot of black marks against my name and it basically meant i had next to no chance of being able to continue running my business. Thankfully a firm did take a punt on me and i am now an employee myself...it has involved a substantial pay cut and we'll have to move next year but it could be a whole lot worse. Managed to get promoted once already so at least i haven't lost my architectural touch. And after all that the year will end on what will probably be the greatest day of my life, i feel very lucky indeed. How amber had the understanding and compassion towards me to keep us together is something i will never know...but i guess that's what they call love.

Xtranormal fun

I found out about xtranormal last night and i love it...all you have to do is write a script and play around with a few animation things and you have a video. I don't know who is reading my blog so you may not understand the videos but they are about people i know

This one is a spoof of Jonathan Lee who i guess could be described as an english humorist

This one is about Bri McIntosh who is the current british wii tennis champion

Best thing to do is have a go yourself!!

What to write

I underestimated bloggers...they are able to come up with ideas for posts at will it appears...i have done one and a half posts and i am already stuck for inspiration. I didn't think i was this boring!!! A lot of my friends are able to take mundane topics and turn them round and write really witty posts about them...i can't do that...i don't have that kind of imagination or wit...my wit, if wit is what you call it, comes out of saying things that others won't...maybe i should write like that?? i'll have a think and come back

Post From The Andes

I'm in Chile at the moment working on a new hotel in Santiago. Blogging right now from the bottom of the Andes. Been hiking around them for the last couple of days...nothing serious...haven't been up very high but still awesome being here. Back to Santiago tomorrow night so will do a proper post then.

Peace.

Hello

Thanks for logging onto my blog. I hope you stick around but i kinda guess that will be up to me to write something worth sticking around for. I'm not starting a blog to really say anything. I just want to see how it goes. I guess I'll be writing about me quite a lot and about New York where i live. Maybe also some stuff about architecture which is my job and my passion.

So me...i'm 28 and i live in Brooklyn with my fiancee Amber. We getting married in just a few weeks now...New Years Eve 2009. I'm excited but also nervous about the future. Never really saw myself as the marrying type at least certainly not before my 30's...but things kinda changed that. I used to be a bit of a loose cannon and did some really stupid things...like sleeping with my friend's girlfriend, writing off my dad's car and nearly ruining my career by making some serious errors in judgement when i was out working in Dubai. But then i met Amber and she's mellowed me out and i am a much better person and embarrassed about my past. I still say and do stuff that i shouldn't but most of the time i am well behind the "Kennedy Line" now. Yeah, i got so stupid i even had a line named after me. I suppose that might be a reason why i am starting a blog...cos i kinda see this as a new start and i am determined to make it stick. Time to be a grown up.

So yeah please stick around if you want to. This blog isn't going to be as funny or as well written as some of the blogs i like to read (you can see them on the right) but it will be me. Think of it like Anna Kournikovas blog without the pictures.

Peace.